I started shooting when I was in high school. It was more of curiosity than passion. It was fascinating to see photographers in action and the wonders of chemistry in the darkroom. I continued shooting in my college years but I have to admit, I never felt the passion during those times.
I ended up working in the print industry for about a decade and a half. I was hooked in the industry because it is a mix of technical and art. Something that keeps my interest afloat. I still take photos once in a blue moon during those times. Most of it was work requirement and some family vacation here and there.
Later, I quit my job because I felt I was missing something in my life. It was then that I turned to photography. The same curiosity brought me back but this time maybe out of maturity or life’s experiences, I felt the passion in photography.
A life of a photographer is very much interesting. Not only that you get to experience a lot of rejections, frustrations and insecurities, you also get a feeling of triumph that would erase any doubt you have in your abilities. It’s a cycle you will get used to when you take the journey of photography.
My greatest dilemma back then and even until now is how to surpass my` previous masterpiece. You will at times just make miracles out of your photos. It’s a joyous and proud moment until it fades and you’re on to your next masterpiece. You don’t know if you still have what it takes to lift the bar higher this time.
A student of mine one time explained to me how being a perfectionist can make you unproductive and endure unnecessary frustration you don’t deserve. He told me that as long you pursue your passion and give it your best, you’ll do good. He also said that sometimes, it is all in our head and even the customers or audience can’t see anything wrong in our work.
I think that at some point we are suffering from unnecessary frustration and I couldn’t agree more that we are the one that breaks ourselves. However, I think that the pursuit of perfection is also what separates you from the rest. It’s what breaks barriers. However, a good balance between the two would be advisable.
I’m glad I decided to become a photographer. It’s a wonderful feeling to see the world in another angle. I can spend my day just watching the light move to another position. Small things that seem nothing would start to make sense and the joy of witnessing it is just awesome. Like a fruit, it has to ripen to get the sweetest taste.
Keep on shooting everyone!